Exit Wounds - from "Subconscious"

Part 1
FAREWELL

Today's a day
that they knew could be coming
but it hurts the same anyway
the soldier is called
to take part in the battle
but he's still just dad for today

The table is set
the family is gathered
to send their father on his way
his country calls
the soldier that leads them
is leaving to enter the fray

CHORUS:
Farewell laughter
farewell to your boys
farewell daughter
farewell to your voice
farewell father
farewell to you son
farewell brother
until the war is done

What awaits no one knows
what war brings time will show
all that's certain is the cause and the man
all are hurting for the price war demands

CHORUS

What can be said
when emotions run so high
there's a lump in his throat
and everyone he cares for is saying goodbye

Tomorrow he leaves for war
but that doesn't matter now
all that he cares about
is enjoying this night somehow

But there's one who will suffer
more than the rest
yet she will still remain hopeful
she will still do her best
to raise their children to be worthy
of the freedom they possess
and to understand the sacrifice
of a soul whose blood is shed

What awaits no one knows
what war brings time will show
all that's certain is the cause and the man
all are hurting for the price war demands

CHORUS

Part 2
THE SOLDIER

Sailing far and away
from the place he wants to be
but his heart's still there
though his job is across the sea

His thoughts are of reflection
the way he used his time
though his life was not perfection
the moments of regret were few to find

And somehow he knows
that he won't be coming back
what he wonders the most
is how his family will react

But now the battle draws near
pulls him away from the past
with a sigh he moves out
committed to lead the attack

Fear has left him and adrenaline surges
straight ahead he sees the battlefield
the first explosion brings death closer
his mind is focused his orders clear

Believing in freedom
enough to give his life
as the moment of truth arrives
he's not afraid to fight

Taking down the enemy quickly
he fights alongside good company
willing to die for their country
willing to fight to keep men free

Believing in freedom
enough to give his life
as the moment of truth arrives
he's not afraid to die

Bullets fill the air as thick as a smoke cloud
the cost of war lay spread across the ground
no one panics as the fighting turns fatal
at any moment the death toll could sound

Sudden pain strikes and he looks at himself
as he clutches his side he drops his gun
collapsing in darkness his eyes start to dim
and the next thing he knows he is gone

Believing in freedom
enough to give his life
as the moment of truth arrives
this is his time to die

Part 3
THE UNBELIEVER

Never again will I see his face
it's already lost from my memory
he's dead and gone, no sense in praying
no time is left for him to love me

He'll never see me become a man
he'll never see me do the best I can
my hope has already begun to fade
there is no miracle to stop my rage

CHORUS:
Dead and gone, no life after death
I don't believe-don't preach to me
call me crazy but I just don't see
I think your beliefs are just fantasy
I've lost my dad and I don't know why
anyone would choose to fight and die
he left us here and I don't believe
that war is worth the pain and grief

What comfort and peace can I have?
is there a way I can ease my mind?
those who claim in life beyond
are just the blind leading the blind

He'll never be here to share my dreams
to give advice when life is bleak
I feel abandoned in my hour of need
my anger builds, another flame to feed

CHORUS

Part 4
DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL

Daddy's little girl
just a little girl now
the pain so unbearable
that she simply shuts down

She's sitting in the corner
not a word will pass her mouth
since the news arrived
she's withdrawn into herself

So much crying
too much denying
her delicate heart shattered
her frail emotions battered

CHORUS:
The point of ruin so near
for the child he held so dear
can a girl so young survive the loss?
can her will rise up and bear this cross?
or for her is all life's meaning lost?

She cries herself to sleep
and sleep is all she wants
it's the only way for her to cope
her refuge from the storm

Staring at the ceiling
another day slips into night
as teardrops soak her pillow
his image fills her mind

So much crying
too much denying
her delicate heart battered
her frail emotions shattered

CHORUS

Part 5
THE BELIEVER

I believe that there's more than just this life
and I believe in my son's sacrifice
I can see why my boy would join the fight
and I can feel him looking down from the other side

There's no need for regret
he did what was right in his eyes
why should I diminish his life
by seeing his death in a negative light

There are many things that don't make sense
but I never dwell on them for long
I've fought in war and seen men fall
and I know that they're not really gone

If there's nothing to believe in
then life would have no reason
if faith is seeing blindly
then remove my sight from me
I'm unshaken

And when I falter
I'll work my way back
to solid ground
because I have
conviction in the
wisdom I have found

If there's nothing to believe in
then life would have no reason
and death would be so senseless
for everyone not just my son
I'm decided

Part 6
WIDOWED

I can't accept
that he's left my side
the days are long
and the night leaves me terrified

Every morning I wake
and put my best face on
but everything reminds me
my best friend is gone

CHORUS:
Please God save me
and help me to see
with unshaken faith
I want to believe
show me that death
doesn't mean that he's gone
give me a sign
that there is life beyond

I can't find a reason
to get out of bed
his last words to me
are stuck in my head

I'd like to believe
that I'll see him again
I'll try to keep hope
that this isn't the end

CHORUS

In the dead of night
I wake up screaming
from this nightmare
that's become reality
I'm all mixed up inside
and I can't reconcile
because he's gone but I believe
in what he was fighting for

In the light of day
I find strength inside
but I cannot hide
the pain that's drowning me,
drowning me

In the dead of night
I wake up screaming
in the light of day
I find some meaning
I'm all mixed up inside
what was right has all gone wrong
and still my life will carry on
though I'm not sure what I'm fighting for

Part 7
THE SOLDIER ALIVE

I want to be
the man my father was
and if I'm half that
I'd be a better man because
I would have faith
I would never lack love
for the people that surround me
I could never give enough
and I'd see my freedom
in the light that it's meant to shine
I'd see that nothing that surrounds me
is gained without a price

I want to be
the man he saw in me
and if I'm half that
I know that he will see